Time for a brazilian?

So I had my second PT appointment yesterday. I was still nervous even though I knew what to expect and I feel comfortable with my PT. After stripping down and draping a sheet over me, Val came in and applied the EMG sensors to my pelvic floor muscles. I think the EMG is a great because the only part that hurts is taking the sensors off. It’s pretty much like getting a wax…every time. Maybe I just need to get a real wax to advert that pain every week haha.

Again I practiced by myself trying to lower the numbers on the scale and really feel what it is like to be “relaxed” which is under a 2 on the scale. The good news is that my resting (as much as I can be rested, naked in at the PT office) is 4-4.5 which last time was 5. However last time I was able to get down to 1.5 and yesterday the lowest number I saw was a 2.3…maybe I was thinking too much?

After trying to lower the scale, Val came back in and wanted to practice just touching the outside areas and not going in. She wanted me to get down to a 3 before she just the outside but I could only get to a 4. So she settled for that number. Just with her sitting next to me I jumped to a 7! And when I told her I was ready for her to just touch, as soon as I felt her come near I shot up to a 12! But then went back down slowly to 5-7. It was so interesting to visibly see my vaginismus and to see that things are just “in my head”. It also means that I still have a long ways to go before anything can happen.

Because I still can’t feel when my muscles tighten or relax, Val has suggested that I get a home EMG unit. I think it is a great idea because Alex and I can practice from the comfort of our own apartment. So we are waiting to hear from the company and if my insurance will cover the cost…if not there are renting options. Still expensive but better than paying for more PT sessions that I could be doing at home. Cross your fingers!

I’m also looking into some homeopathic remedies for stress/muscle relaxers. I came across kava at a health food store that is a root used by Tongans as a sedative/relaxer. The supplements I got are for everyday stress relief and supposed to promote relaxation. So I am going to try those along with my nightly routines to see if it helps.

Right now I am feeling a little discouraged that my second appointment didn’t go as well. But I think once we can get our hands on our own EMG things will be a little easier…Maybe I need to think about things less so I don't stress as much. But we all know that's not possible :/